Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Day 9 of 365

Affection is responsible for nine-tenths of whatever solid and durable happiness there is in our lives.

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To my Dear Friends who peek at the blog...

I'm so grateful for you, that you do spy, and that I can peek into your lives. I never grow weary for your enthusiasm for life, your love for others and the whole hearted desire to love life and to be gentle, loving and encouraging to me.

Please do come by more and more, please do share with me your stories, and please, please, let me call on you again when I'm drowning in doubt and need a voice to remind me that today is just a moment in a life time, that my sweet boys are souls to be loved and led, prayed over and hugged while they grow into the men God created them to be.

I am in desperate need of your kind words, and I breathe deeply when I see how you all grab life hard and taste it, smell it, and love all of it and your family. You make me want to enjoy better.

No one should be alone in this parenting gig. We should walk together. You quietly walk into my life and wrap your arm around my shoulder and say, "I know, I know."

We can hold each other up over the miles.

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I have gone through a bit of a blogging crisis in the last few weeks. Not that I'm stumbling over what to write, but that I've been searching out WHY I'm blogging. I have, quiet honestly, had to address my desire to impress others, or to prove myself.

I had to stand back and rethink things, I want my life to be small and quiet, so why am I trying to prove myself to whomever reads my blog?

And I'm steeping in these thoughts and remembering that my goal is to please God not man....and that I need only prove myself to Him.

So then, what? What is my blogging for? I started it as a bit of a photo journal and a way to share stories and photos with family. But today, I'm quite certain none of my family visit the blog so that's not a good purpose.

And this week,

I dumped my heart out a little....and I got this.

Kind, kind words. I was encouraged, laughed with, met and agreed with. And Sweet Hilary even has the perspective to whisper to me what a wonderful little life I have, without even saying it.

Thank you, friends. I know why I'm blogging. I have like-minded friends out here that my heart holds tightly to.

Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival.
C. S. Lewis
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6 comments:

Pebblekeeper said...

Love Ya.I've come full circle. I blog for me. Whoever wants to read it - is bonus. :) ( I could be out with the family with the night time store - "I shouldn't be alive" on discovery channel . . . or reading your blog. . . hmmmmmmmm

Pebblekeeper said...

Love you! I have come full circle on blogging - I blog for me. A hobby and a release. Whoever wants to read it - is up to them. . . Tonight it is a choice of "I shouldn't be alive" on discovery channel or reading my google reader blogs .. . hmmm tough choice

Hazel said...

Well, there *is* little old me, so perhaps I can make up for the family contingent from time to time.

I have to agree with Pebblekeeper--this is a pursuit that we should do for ourselves. Our own interest and edification.If you feel like just sharing photos, that's cool too. We all have our seasons...

Your sister~ hz

Hilary said...

Yes, yes, let's please keep sharing our lives and holding each other up over the miles! Cheering for and encouraging one another, inviting each other into the silly and the serious, being honest when oru days are less than perfect - what gifts, all of it :)

Lora said...

Well, i'm glad by the end of the writing you had figured it out for yourself. :) I go through stuff like this, too. in fact, i'm going through a "quiet" season of blogging currently. I hear you.

i enjoy your space and your words.

and I dug out something I wrote that this post reminded me of... it was farther back and less relevant as a whole than i remembered... but i copied the part i was thinking of for you:

"Would we even really see half of it (our beautiful lives) for what it's worth if we didn't take note, catch it in still frames, turn it into love letters and lifetime memories for ourselves and our little ones?

My Dad says we don't miss things that we don't miss out on.
Could blogging just be a reminder to look?"

hopefully just another reason to consider staying on.

God Bless you, whatever you write or chose not to. :)

Cathy said...

mmmm...I loved reading your heart here.

One of the many reasons I stopped blogging for awhile is because I was questioning my motives. Now, if I blog, it's for me and the now few who love me enough to read MY heart...even took down the ole blog visitor counter majigger.:)

Love you friend! Do you have Skype???