Sunday, March 30, 2014

a break in Spring

Every year I look forward to this season, we have wrapped up our year of Classical Conversations community days and we are left to our own selves to finish up the school year.

We love our Classical Conversations group!  It's so fun to meet with these friends each week and the academics are fabulous.  I have been able to tutor the Essentials class this year, which has called for a lot of English Grammar study!  Did you know that verbs have moods?  Tenses?  Even gender? Anyhow, as much as we love CC I'm relieved to have a shift in schedule and some time to beef up on Challenge A things for Joey's class next year.

But inevitably we reach the last week of CC and I flounder.  The simple transition really throws me for a loop. Every time.

This week is Spring break too, and I finally realized that my mind is screaming at me, "Hurry up!  It's Spring break!  You've been waiting for this time to paint Nate's room, to Spring clean the kitchen, to rest, to play!!"  All of that, and really what I would love to do is rest.

It reminded me of a recent getaway Ralph and I took.  My folks were sweet enough to watch the boys while we drove into the sunset for a weekend.  We hadn't done that for nearly 4 years and I had been so looking forward to the break!  When we arrived & unpacked I couldn't shake the idea that I really needed to hurry up and rest.

I spent some time the next morning in the Word and in prayer, and God whispered to me the truth that I know but struggle to trust: My only Rest is in the Lord.  It's not a physical position, it's a heart position.  Resting, trusting in the Lord.  

My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him.  Psalm 62:1

          Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  Matthew 11:28


So here it is Sunday, looking ahead to the week of Spring break and needing to remember from whom my rest comes.  I'm learning to live, to work, to teach from a state of rest.  But I'm slow to learn, quick to forget.  I need to go work on my heart position, again.  My soul finds rest in God alone.  

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

It's coming....

It's been so long that I almost forgot the URL, I had to sign in to my own blog to create a post.

I'm not sure what happened there, a season in which I abandoned the blog entirely.  There was grief and loss, a busy summer, then a new school year that brought with it a new Grammar class to teach (lots of study for me!)  Next came the holidays and a screaming feeling that if I don't keep doing the next thing on my list the world will fall apart and it will be my fault.  (Not true!)

In this season, I can hear myself breathing again and when the sink is full of dishes and there are math papers to grade I sometimes find myself stopping;

to stare at the full moon

to tickle my growing boys or

to read to them again for hours on end.

Slowly, I'm beginning to want to blog again. A restful activity for my heart.
But for today I must prepare for class tomorrow.  So a simple little note to get my mind and heart going.

Life is not an emergency.